Trinidad Again
Friday, October 29th, 2010The airplane glided over tin-roofed houses and verdant countryside for what seemed like hours. A heavy tropical rain was falling. I was seeing Trinidad for the first time in years through the heavy rain of my plane window.
Returning to my early childhood home after spending many years away seemed oddly familiar. Thirteen years of filling in the memory gaps of a six year old. There was the ice cream parlor that had indoor swings. And there was the outdoor movie theatre that had a playground somewhere in it. Perhaps I had invented some other names and places along the way, I wasn’t sure. I had definitely romanticized others.
I remembered the Hindu festival of lights: Diwali. It was celebrated by everyone, especially the island’s numerous Hindus. I remembered the clay lamps set out every Diwali and the street vendors —working their only nighttime shift of the year—rolling dough and placing them in boiling oil. They were called phlourie and were to be eaten with tamarind sauce. But most of all, I remembered the greenery in Trinidad.
My expectations did not align with reality. I was shocked by what I found once I actually arrived. In comparison to the big American cities, Trinidad seemed like a country frozen in time. The largest city boasted a population of 40,000 and the capitol, Port of Spain, had even less at 20,000 residents. Nothing seemed to make sense. It was all tiny and cramped. Houses sprouted from every available piece of land on the island.
As we drove from the airport, I saw the occasional vacant lot. They were barely visible under the rapid plant growth of the Caribbean, yet they stood next to immaculate pink and orange houses. My mother saw my confusion and said knowingly, “someone in the family probably died and now their family is fighting over the land.”
I spent the next week driving all over the island. The capitol was unchanged from colonial times. Beautiful colonial houses lined Savannah Park— where I had spent every Diwali — (make sure dashes are same length) along with official embassies and The Red House (our (our?) equivalent to the White House). I remembered all of this, but I did not remember the decay that I found in the dense buildings in the heart of Port of Spain.
The cobblestones of the capitol crumbled under the Caribbean Sun as did the storied colonial buildings that towered above them. The slums circled all of this. Not surprisingly, I had not even remembered slums. Or the capitol being dangerous at night. What had happened?
Yet, even in the capitol that seemed like it belonged to a third world country, there were quintessentially Trinidadian elements. A middle age rasta (appropriate?) man was making and selling doubles, which a lightly fried pieces of dough that come with curry. He made doubles and sold them to a large lunchtime crowd while telling us his that he’d been working his whole life: “Since I was five. I was born in Laventille side.”( Laventille are the country’s notorious slums).
While what I expected and what I found were completely different, there were some things that were fixed hard and fast in my memory. All of the houses were painted in vivid, bright colors. There was a green house with a gold roof, purple houses and blue houses. They came in every shade and shape, some were massive others were moderate in size. They seemed to be the panoramic of an undrawn Dr. Seuss book.

Despite remembering the flamboyant houses, there were so many rules to remember. Had they even existed a decade ago? Cabs were shared. Minivans in the street could be flagged down for hire but should be avoided because they were unsafe. Even though I had never needed these rules in the past, the truth was undeniable. My original home had become foreign. I was a foreigner in a strange land. My heavy American accent did little to help.
Every hour that passed reminded me of my foreignness. I settled for feeling out of place upon seeing things that were perfectly normal for the rest of my family. They had spent much more time in the country and were not shocked as often as I was.
The first time Trinidad felt completely foreign to me, I was visiting my uncle in the north of the country. In this neighborhood cars continuously passed with speakers attached to the top that belched Hindu chants. They were dirges for the dead who were contained within. They cars were all on their way to the nearby Gulf of Paria for cremation ceremonies. The fires burning from the Gulf were constant.
In the time that I spent in Trinidad, I saw a country that I couldn’t place anymore. Driving past its different neighborhoods, including the Hindu ones where every house was studded with prayer flags, brought on the feeling of time travel.
It was time travel.
